new video on youtube :) toxic relationships
I have gone MIA these past days,
I think it’s healthy to be away for a while. To know where I stand, with myself and in other peoples life. I’ve been so caught up with the fear of getting hurt that I forgot how it is to genuinely be happy with someone, instead of catching myself every time I seem to fall for someone.
I look back and see that all my relationships have been so toxic and so unhealthy for me. I want to love myself again that way I know I’m capable of loving my partner 100%.
I have to say today while I was out just walking when I saw a old gay couple, the two man’s were atleast in their late 60’s I saw how much they laughed and I felt so warm just watching them. The simple thought that one day I’ll be able to look at my future wife and realize that I want to spend the rest of my life her is such a powerful feeling. Knowing theirs one soul in this world that is going to be treated like a queen, I will love this person more than anything that touches this earth. There will not be one flaw, or scar that I won’t touch with my lips because I will love every inch of you. God I can’t wait to meet my potential wife.
|—||silly little me (via merokok)|